The New World (No, Not the Floaty Version)

People keep asking me what I mean when I talk about the new world.

Fair question.
And no, I’m not talking about floating off into 5D, using New Age lingo, or redecorating your life to resemble a spiritual gift shop.

Even though it may sound a little New-Agy at first glance, my version of the so-called new world is actually refreshingly simple.

It’s about people choosing their own signal over the constant noise of the powers that be.

Like Politicians. Media. Internet. Priests. Scientists.Teachers. Systems.

It’s about remembering what’s the real you underneath everything you were taught to perform.

It’s deeply understanding how your choices shape your reality and then actually living like that matters. We can make this as quantum-theoretical as you like, or we can keep it brutally simple at its core.

And at the heart of it all is this:

YOU, refusing to let the stories of your past, your family line, or this society decide what your future will look like.

You get to break the script.
One decision at a time.

The Part Most People Skip Right Past

There’s a deeper layer most people conveniently overlook.

You are god/source/creator, in a human body.

Not metaphorically. Not “in theory.”

You actually are the power, the wisdom, and the energy people keep outsourcing to white-bearded old men on clouds, churches, gurus, influencers, and systems.

You never needed them, you don’t need to become anything.
You already are totally da bomb.

It was YOU the whole damn time.

So yes, at some point it’s time to stop philosophizing about it and start acting like it. Living it. Breathing it. Owning it.

Because once you see how much of the old world runs on fear, performance, pressure, and distraction, you can’t unsee it.

The cracks show, the façade wobbles and the whole f-ing Truman Show becomes obvious.

And there’s no going back to pretending you don’t notice.

The In-Between Is the Hardest Part

This is where a lot of people get stranded.

You don’t fit the old story anymore, but you’re still living in the middle of it. And that mismatch is exhausting.

You want a life on your own terms, but you keep sliding back into old habits.

You’ve done the healing, the searching, the “work on yourself.”

And still, something essential hasn’t clicked.

Your body is clear, but your mind keeps negotiating.

You want to think beyond the box, but the box has become muscle memory and it needs a hard reset.

And there’s this part of you that feels like you’re preparing for a future nobody around you can see yet. That part is getting louder every day.

Yes, it’s weird. And no, you’re not imagining it.

You’re not too sensitive, you’re not dramatic.

You’re just early with cracking the code.

What Actually Creates Change

What most people don’t need is more information, more techniques, or another framework to “get it right.”

What they need is space.

Space to drop the performance, space to stop self-editing, space to hear themselves again without the constant interference.

Space where power is not outsourced, and no, not even to someone like me creating the space.

That’s where clarity returns, where decisions land.
Where things stop staying theoretical and start becoming lived.

Real change doesn’t come from pushing harder.
It comes from resetting the signal and letting what’s true come back online.

Again and again.

You ARE the New World, Practically Speaking

The new world isn’t somewhere you go.

It’s how you choose.
How you relate to yourself, and how you stop negotiating with what you already know.

It’s living from alignment instead of approval.
From ownership instead of obedience.
From truth instead of performance.

It’s deeply human. Grounded. Clear.

And once you taste it, there’s no un-tasting it.

This is not an invitation to escape the world.
It’s an invitation to inhabit yourself fully, right in the middle of it.

How I Work (And Why People Choose to Work With Me)

If this lands, you probably don’t need more content, more theory, or another explanation of why the world is broken.

You already see it.

What usually does make the difference is having a place where you don’t have to explain yourself. Where you’re not being talked into a new identity or managed into a better version of yourself.

This is not me fixing you.
This is me holding space while you remember what you already know.

I work through conversation. Through presence. Through cutting through the noise until what’s true becomes obvious again.

No management bingo. No spiritual bingo. No pressure to perform or “get it right.”

People come to me when they feel early, out of sync, or done with outsourcing their power, but are still living inside a system that keeps pulling them back.

They don’t always come with a problem.
They come with a desire. A sense that something wants to move.

Working with me feels light, human, and surprisingly playful, even when the shift is deep. The effect is not at the level of symptoms, but at the level of identity.

Decisions land. The inner negotiating stops. Things align because they can’t nót align anymore.

If you’re done running a race you never signed up for, and you feel the pull to live this for real instead of thinking about it, then at some point, we’ll probably cross paths.

No rush. No funnel.
Just real people, real conversations with the right questions, and real movement.

Love, Annemarijn

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The art of being true to yourself

In our society we talk a lot about community, connection, and togetherness.

But too often, that turns into a subtle pressure to blend in. To agree. To soften our edges so no one feels uncomfortable or excluded. We were taught that being yourself, is often considered selfish.

‘Self-centered’ says it all, a negative trait. The words alone probably give you an uncomfortable feeling.

To belong, you are expected to compromise. For the greater good. Being a good human means adjusting, staying agreeable, keeping the peace. But peace built on this form of sneaky suppression isn’t peace. It’s tension waiting to break.

Somewhere along the way, following the main narrative became the new form of safety. Having your own thoughts, using plain common sense, or asking honest questions started to feel dangerous.

It made you being judged and dismissed. Cancelled. Prosecuted even.

Which is pretty ironic while we live in a society where inclusivity is quite the hot topic. Obviously, only when it fits the right template du jour.

When you zoom out of all the polarization in our world, it becomes very clear: it isn’t about being right, it’s all about being real. It’s the quiet power of observing. Of daring to say “I don’t know.” Of standing in the space between opposing sides and realizing that neutrality isn’t apathy or disinterest, but wisdom.

When you stop rushing to take a position whenever you are being nudged by the media, you start to see and feel things as they are in your own pace. That’s where true discernment begins.

Let’s start with the basics: YOU

Carl Jung spoke of ‘individuation’. The process of becoming an individual, with your own identity and personality.

My humble interpretation: integrating every part of yourself so you can stand whole, certain, honest and connected, not half-hiding and apologetic. That’s what this era asks of us. Not louder opinions, but deeper integrity. Responsibility and accountability for yourself and your actions. Owning it all.

I often say I’m a simple woman (though my loved ones will happily argue otherwise). What I mean is: I naturally look for the essence rather than getting lost in layers of theory. Or rather, I FEEL the essence rather than rationalize it.

Growing up with a Jungian psychotherapist as a parent, I know how deep and layered individuation really is. There’s a whole universe of theories and books behind it.

But even in all that depth, for me, it comes down to this: staying true to yourself and having the courage to discover what that really means for you, beneath conditioning, expectations, roles, and the stories you inherited without noticing.

This doesn’t simplify Jung. It is just a lot of theory seen through my lens. Because for me, individuation, at its heart, isn’t intellectual.

It’s lived.

It is the deep work of recognizing where you’ve bent and lost yourself for belonging, where you’ve outsourced your knowing, where you’ve internalized someone else’s expectations, and then consciously returning to your own center.

Being your most authentic self doesn’t separate you from others, or makes you a danger to others. It makes you capable of real connection, of being a true anchor in a relationship, in society. Because once you are comfortable standing in your truth: speaking it, breathing it, living it, you stop needing to be acknowledged, included, or approved of.

When you move from your own center, you can hold complexity and duality.
You can love without losing yourself, you can listen without judging.
You can stand strong amidst the storm of heavy polarization, conflict, and all the shadows of our world.

The more we remember who we are, the more we belong.
Individual truth doesn’t divide, it actually stabilizes the field.

This isn’t about standing apart. It’s about standing whole. In all your funky weirdness, your mess, your light, and your darkness. Observing. Listening. Thinking clearly. Feeling.

From that place, compassion and living together with other human beings becomes honest, not strategic.

It starts, as always, with the man in the mirror. (thank you, MJ!)

What I have to offer in this 'becoming' is not a luxury item.
I want to zoom out of our every day hustle, together with all of you. To give words to the deepest felt realizations. To find your inner fire, your truth, the things that bring a spark in your eye and a spring in your step.

Every day you spend ‘existing’ while you feel ‘off’ drains your energy, your money, your joy, your expansion, your possibility.

It keeps you looping inside an identity you’ve already outgrown. And every day you postpone your evolution, the cost is pretty high.

Why? Because your choices don’t just shape your own life. They shape your children’s lives. And they shape the future of humanity. It has an enormous ripple effect.

Big words, right? Yep.
But they’re real and it gives me goosebumps to even write it down.

And here’s my role in all of this, as far as my human self can understand it right now: I’m here to stand next to you. To speak, to write, to broadcast, to guide. To create a field for people who feel the undeniable itch.

As you can read in this piece of my heart (aka blog). These writings are one part of my work.

I am totally at ease with being the weird woman now. Being misunderstood. Because I am speaking from my own truth. And because I know I am just early. It’s a tough job, but someone’s gotta do it, hahaha!

My work is meant for those of you who are done virtue signalling, tired of being an acceptable version of themselves and who are ready to live from truth.

I’ve been feeling the nudge towards starting a whole movement, for the ones who feel this shift in their bones and know they’re not meant to navigate it alone. And having a lot of fun in the proces too! Be ready for a lot of aha-moments.

Let’s start small and play big!

If your body lights up reading this, let me know!

Let’s build what’s actually true. Together.

Love, Annemarijn

Back to the future

You didn’t come here to escape being human

There are quite a lot of people walking around right now who don’t quite fit anywhere. 

They feel ancient, as if they have lived a million lives and carry codes and memories they can’t explain.

At the same time, they feel futuristic, tuned into something that hasn’t fully arrived yet, something they can sense but not quite name. They feel the old powerstructures cracking and, instead of mourning that, they’re quietly celebrating. You might be one of them.

You’re not here to adapt to a broken system. You’re here to remember something older than time itself and use it to create what’s coming next.

Somewhere deep inside, the future is stirring.

And I don’t mean the digital or AI kind of future. Not the one where we keep outsourcing our power and be controlled in every part of our lives. I am talking about the one where we remember what it’s like to own our lives again. A future that’s not about proving, obeying, pleasing, or pushing.

Just real people being real together.

You can feel it under your skin, the remembering and the becoming, ancient wisdom moving through your body that’s at the same time still trying to keep up with the pace and demands of everyday life. 

But here’s the thing: you didn’t come here to be controlled and neither did you come here to escape this human experience.

You came here to live it.

Not to float above your feelings. Not to cry, grieve, or rant politely in private. Not to be only love and light, but also to embrace the dark parts of life.

You came here to be in it, to touch it all: the mess, the magic, the pain, the joy, and the wonder that comes with being fully alive.

Embodiment isn’t at all about perfection. It’s about presence.

It’s about breathing fire into your daily life, feeling everything that moves through you, and staying open even when it’s uncomfortable.

This is what being human was meant to be: not “high vibe only,” but fully felt.

To feel the whole damn thing: the love and the loss, the beauty and the shit of it. To cling to people and things you know you can lose. To break open, cry snot and tears, to be hungry, tired, cold, turned on, pissed off, alive. 

To be wildly in love, to hold another warm body in your arms, to dance and sing, to walk in nature, to feel the wind whipping your hair, to dig in the soil with your bare hands, to feel the sun on your skin. to enjoy good food and take good care of yourself and each other.

Being human isn’t clean or enlightened. It’s muddy and magnificent and heartbreakingly real. 

The new world isn’t arriving through more digital control or through endless cycles of healing and self-improvement. It’s arriving through real people who are here, in their bodies, willing to feel everything and still choose to love anyway.

The world doesn’t need more perfect beings floating above the mess; it needs humans who can hold love ín the mess. People who can walk through pain without losing their humanity, people who can hold both shadow and light and dare to feel both at once.

Take a breath. 

You don’t have to rush this.

We are returning and moving forward at the same time. Time was never linear anyway. You are here to bring heaven to earth. You are the bridge, the ancient and the future embodied in one human form.

Right now, we’re in some kind of vacuum. 

The old world is dissolving: its systems, values, and illusions collapsing under their own weight, often with a lot of noise and a desperate last powergrab.

The new world hasn’t fully landed yet, and that in-between can feel really strange. It’s easy to think something’s wrong, that you’ve lost your way or fallen behind.

But this space ís the way. It’s the cocoon where transformation happens.

You’re remembering what’s real while unlearning what never was. You’re letting go of everything that kept you small, distracted, or disconnected from your own knowing.

We can’t rush or enforce this part. We can only stay present in it, fully human, fully feeling, and trusting.

Right now is the time that has been whispered about for eons: the turning point, the great return.

We are here to hold the line, to stay present in the middle of it, and to remember that this is not collapse, it’s rebirth. What a time to be alive!

Everything you just read is not theory. It’s happening in real time, right now, in your body, in your choices, in your life. 

What I am offering is a space to observe yourself: to stop surviving and get real. To see where you’re still fighting life instead of living it. To clear the noise so you can stand firm and move forward with both feet on the ground.

We get practical. We look at what’s actually happening: in your body, your choices, your days. What needs to end. What needs to begin.

And we move.

If you feel the pull, don’t wait for the perfect moment. That’s the old world talking, and it keeps you nice and quiet in your old story. 

I’m inviting you. Let’s get started to find out what this looks like for you.

Check out what I have to offer here:

Love, Annemarijn

Dracarys

Humanity Is Conditioned to Play It Safe

To not take too many risks.
To stay part of the herd.
To survive.

And for a big part, it works. This ancient, reptilian part of your brain has helped humans survive through the ages.
But survival was never meant to be the end goal. Even back then, people had to venture out, to find food, partners, new territory.

That instinct to stay safe is ancient.
And it’s being hijacked by the one percent of our leaders who prefer to keep the ninety-nine percent nice and quiet.

The Golden Cage

Your safe cave, the one that feels so familiar, is also what keeps you small.

Because it can be reaaallly cozy in there. Lined with a beautiful house (and a killing mortgage or rent plus taxes), nice clothes, good food, holidays, a bit of Netflix, and an “okay” job.

Bread and circuses: it looks like comfort, but it’s still a cave.
A golden cage built on fear, disguised as “having it together.”

It holds you back from your dreams, your truth, and the kind of life that makes you feel fully alive.

The Inconvenient Truth

Remember the curfew during the pandemic?
That, too, felt pretty cozy for many. A glass of good red wine, a thrilling Netflix series, sitting in your onesie by the woodstove.

Surpassing the fact that you were locked up in your own home while being perfectly healthy.
A pretty luxurious, homely prison-facility.

Does that trigger you? Good. It’s meant to. Because it’s the perfect example.

FEAR is the biggest obstacle on the road to becoming who you really are, and the biggest tool in the box to keep us under control.

Our entire society runs on fear. Just turn on the news.
(Or better yet, don’t. Million-dollar tip right there.)

Fear. Division. Polarization. Divide and conquer.
As old as time.

Who Profits From Your Fear?

While the one percent feeds off the energy of our fear and smallness, their pockets grow deeper.
And ours? Empty.

Not just financially. Emotionally too.

Love, joy, freedom, compassion, sovereignty, they are all forms of energy.
And most of us give that energy away daily, voluntarily.

Here’s the tricky part: most of our life choices are made out of fear.

Fear vs Freedom

Make a list of what you truly want in life, what you want to do, who you want to be.
Then ask yourself: why am I not already doing or being that?

The answer is always: fear.

How to step out of fear?
We blow up the whole safe cave.

Not just to peek out.
No. We plant a big stick of energetic dynamite and blow the whole thing up.

Because beyond that edge lies magic and freedom.

I’m not asking you to be reckless.
I’m asking you to MOVE.

Feel the Fear and Move Anyway

I know what it’s like to live in fear. I still do, often.
But I’ve looked it in the eye.

I’ve chosen to speak my truth and do my own thing, even when it made me stand out like a sore thumb.
Even when my voice trembled.
Even when people disliked me. (That one stung, trust me.)

But I’m still here.
And I kept moving.

Sometimes in big quantum leaps, sometimes in baby steps.

I feel the fear and do it anyway.

And every time I do, I step a little further out of the fear-based system.
Like the total badass rebel that lives somewhere deep inside you, too.

Step Out of the Divide

Zoom out for a second. Look at how the game is played.
Who drives the divide? Who profits from our infighting?

Stepping out of that boobytrap: divide et impera, is pure liberation.

And no, it’s not inhumane to stop fighting, as long as you don’t stop caring.

The boldest act of resistance is to stand in your truth, power, and love.
Even when you’re a raging dragon inside.
Especially then.

Dracarys

I love to tell myself “Dracarys”, very often.
Also while writing a story like this.

‘Dracarys’ is the old Valyrian word for dragonfire. (Yeah, Game of Thrones. I watched it because I’m in desperate need of more dragons in my life.)

I have a lot of dragonblood running through my veins.
I thrive on that inner fire, I need it to feel urgency, to get moving, writing, evolving, caring.

This dragonblood is also an ancient reptilian part of our system, and it’s about time we ignite the shit out of it.

But direct your fire wisely.
Alchemize your rage into power, the power to change yourself, and by doing so, to change the world.

The road to hell is paved with good intentions by “nice” and decent people who play by the rules.
The road to heaven, straight back to source?
That one is paved by loving, sovereign souls who dare to search for light and truth and blaze their inner fire.

Rise and Expand

Is it scary and challenging to rise and expand? Hell yes.
Will you still feel fear? Absolutely.
Does it have repercussions from people and systems around you? For sure.

But only from people and systems that thrive on your smallness.

You can decide to step out of this default position of fear.
Not expecting problems, but expecting possibilities.

Take aligned action.
Surround yourself with cheerleaders for your growth.

First step: acknowledge that you have been taking fear-based decisions.
Next step: action.

It will get easier as we grow, rise, and evolve, together with a growing number of people who dare to step into their loving and fierce power.

I’m Not All-Knowing. I’m Walking Beside You.

I’m here on this earth, in this human body, on a very clear mission: to guide you to the next level of freedom.

Not through edgy marketing funnels or manipulative sales strategies. That takes way too much of my precious energy and fire.

Because I know that when I breathe my fire and share my truth, the right people will feel it, light up by it, and start to move.

If that’s you, stop waiting.
If this story lit something inside you: good.

That’s your dragonfire waking up.
When you’re ready to move, you’ll know.

Follow that. Explore, connect, read, reach out: wherever it takes you.
Everything you need is already waiting for you on my website.
Dracarys. Move.

Love, Annemarijn

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Identity and the Illusion of “Good Enough”

We’re raised to choose a path long before we even know who we are.

Pick a study. Pick a job. Pick a mortgage. Pick a life.

At sixteen or eighteen, you’re asked to make choices that shape your income, your worth, your self-image — all before you’ve even met your true genius, let alone been guided toward it. Before you’ve seen what life really is about, or all the possibilities it holds.

And somehow, we’re expected to stick to that plan until the gold watch or retirement.

All the while hustling for money, and being grateful for weekends, Netflix, and holidays. Yes, you lead a good life. But still, that quiet gnawing feeling of not enough never really leaves. And it’s as random as it sounds.

The illusion of choice

Does this sound a little exaggerated? Maybe. But I challenge you to look back — to look inward — and observe yourself and the choices you made. From what place were those choices made?

You built an identity around those early decisions. Some of them just seemed to have happened to you.

Now you measure yourself in billable hours, salary, productivity, performance reviews.
You get good at it. Maybe even successful.

But somewhere deep inside, there’s that whisper:
“Good enough is not enough.”

When “adulting” becomes self-erasure

Because somehow, you got stuck in the hustle.

Not enough money to be free.
Not enough time.
Not enough energy for the things that make you feel alive.
Not enough rest.
Not enough presence.
Not enough fire.
Not enough space for stillness, for art, for curiosity, for the part of you that remembers who you were before all this.

We call it being an adult.
In school, you were trained to get used to it — to understand “how things work in the real world.”

But let’s be honest: why should you settle for that story?
You decide how your own adult life works.
You can step out of the loop anytime and make a change.

We built lives around versions of ourselves that were never meant to carry that much weight, and then we wonder why they crack one day.

Your spirit doesn’t care about your LinkedIn headline

Here’s the truth: your spirit couldn’t care less about your LinkedIn headline.

It cares about resonance. About the frequency of being fully alive.

So maybe the question isn’t “Am I doing enough?”
Maybe it’s “Am I being enough?”

And I don’t mean fame or status. I mean that deep, unmistakable sense of being fully here — body, mind, energy, purpose.

If you’re reading this thinking, “I know there’s more, but I can’t quite name it,” that’s not failure.
That’s your true self rearing its head.

Awareness first.
Then action.

Identity is not your job title

Identity isn’t your job title.
It’s not your follower count, your bank account, or your business model.

It’s something far greater — it stretches beyond lifetimes, beyond dimensions, beyond this flat system of work, money, and perpetual hustle.

So… who are you really?
And how would the ultimate version of you show up to totally nail the time you have on this earth?

I’d love to find out.
Because clarity on the most basic question of all opens up an entire universe of opportunities.

This is not me fixing you

This is you remembering who you were before the world told you to behave.

Truly seeing what sets you on fire. Following your bliss and acknowledging your dreams and obsessions for what they are: direction.

You are god consciousness in a human suit, fully alive. Why settle for less?

Change doesn’t take time.
It’s a decision.
The time is now.

Are you in?
Spots are limited since I’m only working one-on-one online for now.
I’m here, waiting for you to say YES, and explore it together.

Love, Annemarijn

People over algorithms. Thought of someone who needs this? Pass it on, and let this land where it belongs ❤️

New Era, Your Time to Rise

Inconvenient truth: you did not come to earth, as pure god consciousness in a human suit, to be a small, obedient brick in the wall.

Your ancestors fought for survival and freedom. Some were burned at the stake for it. All so that you could stand in your power and embody all that ancient truth. And deep down, you know it.

Is this you?

You have a quite good life, but deep inside something feels off.
You are competent at work, but it isn’t yóur work.
You lost sight of your mission and forgot how to dream — because you were never fully allowed to.
You live with a constant sense of scarcity, even when the fridge is full.
You self-sabotage to avoid friction.
You play small so people keep liking you.
You want to do less and be more, but the treadmill is relentless.
You don’t fit the system, yet you still have to live in it.
You miss direction, courage, voice, and conviction.
You want sovereignty but don’t know how to embody it.
You hop from problem to problem and can’t see the infinite possibilities.
You want a life on your terms — and still pay the bills.
You want to stay true without being pulled into the world’s polarity.
You feel ancient threads calling deep in your bones and want access to that wisdom.

You are ready for change.
Ready to be fully yourself.

The great unraveling

Right now, systems are cracking. Millions are waking up. The false program unravels. These times call for people who choose to live from their true self. Who remember their ancient power and wisdom. Who activate the full blast of their DNA.

Standing in your truth will strip away what isn’t aligned and release an infinite field of possibilities. Is it scary to leap? For the old you, maybe. But this is the pivotal moment in time to step into the next upgraded version of you.

Make it count.

The ripple effect of standing in your truth

You’ll know this is working because your life starts reflecting your choices.
You start to exit the matrix of fear and stop leaking energy.
Decisions get made faster, with less drama.
Work becomes cleaner or gets replaced.
Money conversations stop being a battlefield.
Conversations that once scared you become clear.
Boundaries become quiet and firm.
Health stabilizes when the nervous system stops sprinting.
Creativity returns.
You start leading, not managing or coping.

The outside world reads this as confidence. To you, it feels like home.
The people who matter will notice. You will feel it first.

This is not coaching. This is remembrance.

What I do goes beyond coaching and healing; it is about action and remembrance.
No new-age fluff or management lingo. This is deep play and clean conversation with you and your source.

I cut through the noise and get you moving, now. Expect clear questions, clean language, grounded meditation, and micro-actions that make the shift real, all with ease, grace, and a good pinch of laughter.

This is not me fixing you.
This is you remembering who you were before the world told you to behave.

Truly seeing what sets you on fire. Following your bliss and acknowledging your dreams and obsessions for what they are: direction.

You are god consciousness in a human suit, fully alive, deeply loving, forgiving, and absolutely not a pushover.

Change doesn’t take time

It is a decision. The time is now.

Time to collapse the story of struggle, the endless healing, the digging for reasons why it won’t work.
Time to unleash your full power.

I only work with clients who are all in and yelling “hell yes” at the screen right now.

When you’re ready to stop waiting and start living on your own terms, that’s where I come in.

No comparison. No category. Just truth.

I’m not here to convince you to give this a go. This is what I’ve been working toward since forever: guiding people like you, in this exact moment in human history, back to themselves.

Sounds cocky? Maybe ;-)
This is me standing in my truth in wildly challenging and exciting times.

Is there a type of expert to compare me to? I don’t think so. I am a category of one.

New eras bring new specialists for new challenges. I consider myself one of them. I am as human as you are, navigating the same path, but I also fully know what I am capable of.

And this is it.

The invitation

So here I am, speaking my truth and offering myself on a silver platter.
And I am well aware that my message goes way beyond what most people find normal or acceptable.

Does that feel scary? Not anymore. This is inevitable for me. I need to do this.

And by doing so, I am inviting you to step up in your own unique way.

If this is the guidance you’ve been searching for, you’ll know. And then we will hit the ground running.

When you’re ready to start living by your own playbook, that’s where I come in.

Are you in?

Spots are limited since I’m only working one-on-one online for now.
Let’s go, and see how good and how cool it can get.
The real cost is in waiting and second-guessing while your whole body already said YES.

Love, Annemarijn

People over algorithms. Thought of someone who needs this? Pass it on, and let this land where it belongs <3

Lioness, Unleashed: What Grief, a Broken System, and a Global Freak Show Taught Me About Power

I have something painful to share, and I am sharing it anyway. It changed how I see life and my place in it.

From people-pleaser to ghost

I used to be a certified people pleaser, the nice girl next door with the big smile. I shaped myself around everyone else, making sure they were comfortable, running on self-erasure I called service, pretending I was fine. The ideal healthcare professional on paper.

It emptied me out. Not because of the people I met, but because of how I kept abandoning myself inside a system that rewarded overgiving and underpaying. The format, the hours, the rules, the nonstop stories and needs and energetics — all of it. I could hold space for a village and still go home feeling like a ghost in my own life.

The underworld of grief

Then the unthinkable happened. We lost our newborn son after almost 48 hours. My husband and I fell into the deepest, darkest pit of despair, devastation and grief imaginable. And we survived.

There is an underworld to grief that does not care about polite conversation or tidy coping strategies. It strips you. It leaves only what is true.

I decided then and there I would never again be swallowed by narrow-mindedness or small-minded respectability. No fussing over the irrelevant to keep the peace. No small talk to avoid the real. No work or circles that do not earn my energy. Me and my family first. What truly matters gets my life force.

The unglamorous aftermath

That reads powerful on the page. The unglamorous part is the aftermath. People who felt sorry for me and still needed their rightful big piece of me, preferably fast. People eager to tell me their grief stories while I was still carrying mine. So I stapled the smile back on and delivered, even when I had nothing left to give. The show must go on, right?

The lioness awakens

Apparently, I needed one more major kick in the butt. I had already been quietly questioning things, diving into rabbit holes few people want you to mention at dinner. Then March 2020 rolled in. Not the disease as such, but the way power handled it and the way society complied.

Something primal in me was poked awake. The lioness rose.

My bottom line has always been the same: do not touch or harm my children. Do not undermine my sovereignty as a mother. Full stop.

Turning shit into gold

If I could skip the grief and upheaval, I would. And still, it forged me. It sped up what I was inching toward in my comfortable, polite pace. It propelled me. I would not trade the growth, the expanded awareness, the clean sense of sovereignty it brought.

This, to me, is real alchemy. Turning shit into gold. Not abstract. Lived.

So I do not fuss about the unimportant now. I keep my energetic sanity. I live on my terms. Not because I am cold or mean — though if you only knew the old people-pleaser without boundaries, you might think so.

I choose this because I want to live well and model that for my kids. I want to be a good human in the truest way I know, aligned with my principles even when the world would prefer I soften, change or stay quiet. A human full of love, laughter and gratefulness, but not a pushover.

The uncorked bottle

My life and choices have to match my spirit. When you feel that click, strong and undeniable, that is your source speaking. That is the real deal. Once you know, you cannot unknow. The bottle is uncorked.

I am not here to turn anyone into an activist b*tch. I am here to guide you to stand 100 percent in your truth and power and to navigate every part of your life by that compass.

These first steps run deep, because real sovereignty reshapes everything: relationships, work, how you spend your hours and your energy. I am bringing all of me, on my terms, as promised.

This is not your usual empowerment fluff; no coaching lingo, no corporate dialect. No endless sales pitch, no marketing funnels, no endless discussions in DMs. You are game or you are not. Simple as that.

If this is meant for you, you do not need convincing. Not about my method, not about the details. Your bones already know. This is big and ancient.

What you get, for real

No fixes. This: a switch. After that, you cannot go back to small. The genie is out, and she does not do cages.

Love, Annemarijn

The painting is made by Ewa Rzeznik. It is not made especially fór me, but to me, it is. My son Klaasje and me, standing on the shore. Him wearing the little woollen skipper jacket I already had bought for him, which he never got to wear in real live…

When I saw it standing on the ground in an art gallery, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I NEEDED this painting in our home. So happy we could purchase it!

Dream BIG…

Daydreams aren’t fluff. They are signals.

In the forest my dog found a branch the size of a small tree and decided it was coming with us. Dogs don’t wait, debate or hesitate. They just do it. I laughed, and then the penny dropped. Do you know that click when truth lands, and you can feel it in your body?

Cracks in the cave

This is expansion. Your system chooses more than it used to carry, and your old “safe cave” can’t hold it anymore. First there are hairline cracks, then light slips in through the seams. Is it too late to stay safely small? Yes. The genie is out of the bottle. You already blew your own cave open.

For a moment it feels scary, you feel stretched. Then your eyes adjust. Any bears or sabre-toothed tigers waiting in the dark? No. There’s a view. There are infinitely many paths you couldn’t see when the walls felt solid and close. And they all feel good. Your belly flutters with anticipation.

Let your daydreams lead

This is where the good old daydreams return. When did you learn to push them away? At school, productivity got the stars and obedience got the praise, so ideas were trimmed to what is normal, realistic and inoffensive. The spark dimmed. Life filled up. Empty spaces got eaten by busyness and a quick scroll. Maybe you built a good life that still doesn’t quite fit. You feel most alive on weekends and holidays.

But now, your cave is cracked. And there is no way back.

Unplug from the program with me and dare to explore. Your daydreams are not fluff, they are signals. When we listen, they become direction. We find where resistance sits in your system, we let it go, and you move forward as yourself. Simple, grounded, often playful. Does that sound like relief?

How we roll

We meet, you move, you integrate. That’s why this works in all its simplicity. You don’t need me as your fixer, holding your hand every step of the way. You need a loving push and someone who loves to daydream with you — and who facilitates and spurs you to embodied action.

Ready to step in? Book your spot here.
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With love,
Annemarijn

People over algorithms. Thought of someone who needs this? Pass it on, and let this land where it belongs <3

P.S. I spent years with horses, finding tension and restriction, releasing it, and getting the animal moving. Now I do the same in my conversations with people.

How much good can you handle? Let’s find out.

Meditation — and all my issues with it

If the word “meditation” makes you go meeeeh, this one’s for you

In this story I want to do a little deep dive on meditation. Maybe not for the seasoned pros who sit with gurus and monks. I’m writing this for everyone who hears the word and thinks “meeeeh.” Like me.

How I grew up with it

I grew up in a spiritual household. My parents (who I love and respect to the moon and back) have always meditated. We went to weekends with like-minded people and, among other things, they meditated. And it was silent. We, the children, had to be very quiet while playing outside. Which we did not want to be. Naturally we became bigger little terrors than we already were. Balance, heh.

I have warm memories of those weekends and the people there. We also saw a parade of New Age types drift in and out: some funny, some terribly annoying, some very “holy.” As kids we made a lot of fun of it. (Yep, not very holy…)

Now that I’m older, I have renewed respect for all of them trying to do the right thing. The odd ones, the sensitive ones, the weird ones. It gave me a wider perspective on the world and everything above. It is part of who I am.

Why classic meditation never fit me

The concept of meditation always carried a push-away for me. As if I wasn’t capable, worthy, or holy enough. Tell me to think of nothing and my mind opens three thousand tabs. And I wasn’t sparing fifteen minutes a day to sit still. Too busy living life… doing a lot of pretty meditative things, actually.

It took me time to realise there are a billion ways to meditate. For me it’s contemplation and reflection. Letting the mind wander. Looking inward. Getting fantastic ideas. AHA’s. Thinking about life. And beyond life. The world, the universe, the multiverse. My children. Dinner. Is that a buzzard? Where is its nest? Is it going to rain? You see where this is going… I wander off in minutes. And it’s all fine. Daydreaming on steroids.

My way in: moving, muddy, alive

The best way for me to reach that contemplative state is not a lotus position on a yoga mat, a church, or an ashram. It’s grounded, earthly things. In nature. With animals. Walking my dog. Riding. Shovelling endless wheelbarrows of horse sh*t. Dirty hands, wet boots. Outside. In wind, rain, and sunshine.

I dare say many of the best ideas in the world stem from a woman, a windy field, and a wheelbarrow.
Also while stirring pots when I cook. Driving. Showering. Those moments where your mind wanders and you slip into another state of consciousness. You end up with inspired ideas and insights. (Keep your voice recorder handy.)

Why this works in sessions

These meditative techniques made their way into my client sessions, and they’re da bomb. We zoom out above the noise. We observe. We step off the rational hamster wheel and the everyday programming. Straight to source: your inner compass. We touch something ancient. We remember. We feel. We turn down the whirr of daily life and the rational brain. What really matters shows itself.

It leads to wonderful experiences, clear ideas and visions. Straight to the point where it matters. Ideas and action steps come from a totally aligned place, where you are whole. And ideas from that place lead to immediate action. Without overthinking. Without the limiting beliefs. Without the fluff.

It’s fun to practice. Anyone can master this in their own way and see what works best.

I’ll be with you to keep it bite-sized. I ask the right questions and give you simple tools to turn vision into action steps you can start right away.

Ready?

Are you in? Let’s go and see where it leads you — to see how good and how cool it can get. The real cost is in waiting and second-guessing while your whole body already said YES.

With love,
Annemarijn

People over algorithms. Thought of someone who needs this? Pass it on, and let this land where it belongs ❤️